No words can console you enough when you loose your expectating 👶. Nobody even your spouse or partner can fully understand your grief just as how you cannot understand theirs.
They say that 20% of pregnancy ends in miscarriage. And 98% of the time is as a result of chromosomes abnormality. 🙄.
Then my question is if I eat right exercise right, think right why wouldn’t my body act right.🤔
They also say it is not your fault there is nothing you did wrong. And there is nothing you could have done to to prevent it.😑
Then I started thinking is my body not part of me and don’t I have a connection with my body?🤔
Or does my body have a mind of it own which is separate from me aka my mind.🤔.
Hi my name is Mabel a.k.a Brillberrie and this is a story about my miscarriage expirence.
My husband and I have been trying to conceive for about ten months after my iud removal . First of all it was a hassle to remove the iud. If you want to know more about my iud removal expirence stay tuned
On the 28th of December 2018 I started to feel a burning pain on the lower right side of my abdomen.😩
At first I thought it was my period coming because I was a week late😏.
The pain lingered 😖 it became more painful, then I thought it could be stress from carring grocery from the store and 🚶1/4 mile home.
Then the pain still persisted after I laid down for a while. And then 💡 a small voice said to me maybe you are pregnant. I brushed it aside because I was afraid of testing and getting a negative results as always😟. The 💡 came again it doesn’t hurt knowing that that is not the cause of the pain.🤔
Fast forward to the 8th of January 2019 I woke up with the same pain that I had for the past three days. I prayed and prayed to God for the baby to be safe and healthy. I felt a disconnect between me and the baby. I can’t explain it more than I just didn’t feel connected to the baby.😰😰😰 I tried but nothing I could not feel it in my spirit.
I got myself up by 11ish in the morning to go and eat. Once I stared walking it felt like I was carring a bag of water and it was about it bust out. 😥. It felt very wet down there and I went to pee just in case that was the ReasonDC but no … I saw blood😵😵😭 .
Tears gushing down my face. My mind racing Helter Skelter oh no blood went to the ER I spent 12 hours there before I was seen and given a room to stay more like a bed 😓.
Every time I want to use the restroom I saw more blood😵. Let me tell you the pain of knowing that the bundle of joy that you were expecting , in case bundles of joy ( yes I miscarried twins😢😢) is washing away and there is nothing you can do to stop it is worse than the cramps associated with the miscarriage.😪😭.
They said that the miscarriage already happened and I am just bleeding. Those word shattered my heart in so many pieces words cannot describe. Hmmmm!
I am tying to move on from that experience. But the truth is it is hard and I believe that time will heal all wounds. I try to stay positive., get myself occupied with anything just anything that will keep me busy.
One thing though. I still haven’t seen my monthly cycle. It is over a month now. Please leave a comment on how long it took for you to get your cycle back after miscarriage.